rain

i had a dream where it was raining in berkeley. we were walking up hill. it was cartoony. we wer going to dance in our underwear. we were afraid of getting caught. there were these white oleander trees. something lived in them spiders or something. we were at a time share. the door led to my back yard. the front was filled with water. the back was snowy. dad aunt katie bily and some of the other champlins were there. i went back to my roommates. the front filled with water had grass and deer and garden gnomes in it. there was either spit or semen stains floating on the top. maybe someone had died. hopefully it was my dad. we came back from dancing. it was on the path next to lewis. we had hot chocolate. it was watery. he came by and had his own hot chocolate. he gave it to me and i got rid of my own. his was watery too. i was telling him i was sorry. i touched his arm. it turned into an odd caress. at that point he looked at me and told me to kiss him. i said no. i asked him why. then i woke up.