inception

We were in oaxland at a mansion. kind of like wilson inside. white. construction going on. there was a view at the top. something about it was so bittersweet. i was amazed until i realized the boats in the harbor crowded the veiw. some one said there was more down the way. I went to look. some one I was about to lose for a long time.
I had a dream with andrew something. both or one. one who lived below me looked like jj and i was trying to log into his netflix. we were all drinking. i said go back to your shot glass or somthing them looked and it was more of a mug. some one needed buttons and i found my co-op one and gave it to them. maria may have been there. he had something to do with the mountain goats. their tour was lined up outside of dwinelle. strange decemberists like costumes. one date was at strawberry canyon one in la. i was planning on trading shifts to get to go to one in la. justin was walking down the hill to me. invite him. we were both carrying our guitars in our backpack. I was really perplexed because i thought mine was heavy. then i realized his must be heavy too. so there really wasn't any crazy reason why mine would be more heavy.
We were about to sit down in the grass between dwinelle and wheeler. i said i thought there were too many crossroads here.
I was in the apartment looking through all the photos i had taken with him. i started to wonder when we took them. they were beautiful nighttime shots of construction areas and lights and the moon. and destruction and oil. there were a lot of the same ones that looked really different some really bad the others good. i tried to remember him teaching me how to change them. i couldn't. i said you must have done the good ones and i did all the shitty ones right. he said something like that. then started pointing them all out. some one i didn't know had taken a few. I guessed i must have been drunk for the whole thing. i asked what i did. he said don't worry about it. I wondered where adena was. she was in bed. she had just gotten into a small private school. I got up and went to the bathroom. we had a huge bathtub that was covered in feces. it was a mess. i thought of telling her to clean up after herself. I wondered wether i told justin anything i shouldn't have. i was in bed trying to figure out which part was real. i wondered if i really went to that movie last night. then i woke up.