Souuuul parades

I was going down handicap ramp. I had just finished taking the paint off of my pink woman painting. I put it down next to the double of the painting. Both pencil contour drawings. I walked away wearing this pink Gypsy outfit. I wonder wear I could have gotten that from. I met my date. A black hole. The closest thing I can come to an image of him is the big guy that comes swimming at Hearst and/or tina's ex-boyfriend. But I think it was more important that he was a black hole. He said something like wow you're really dressed up. I wore it like I owned it. We were trying to find the best place to have pizza. I think we decided on milano. I was like wait they sell pizza? The black whole was trying to sell perfume in bathrooms. It looked just like potpourri. I took a bottle of it and I think it smelled ok but it looked really goopy. Like galkyd, but I didn't think that at the time. I mentioned, and someone else agreed that a bathroom probably wasn't the best place to market his perfume. It was then that it occured to me why he needed me. And the particular type of power that gave me. I was putting the perfume onto a small water-fountain with the boy statue from Hearst in miniature. It was very small and delicate. I kind of liked it and was glad I had found it. It then occurred to me that I would be sleeping there. I realized that he would want to have sex with me. But I didn't want that. I realized that he would rape me. It was a dumb moment for me because I knew that I had known all along that that was the only thing that could have happened. Then I tried to figure out why I would have gone in the first place. Was there some part of this black hole that I wanted to love me? I don't need people to love me. The cabins from arrowhead. I was looking for a ticket to get out of there.
I can't do this right now. I don't care anymore. It only means bad things.