mom

this occurred two nights ago. i think this is the climax. its all down hill from here. i mean, its hard to keep up with the self pity after a slap in the face like this:

mom was remarried. it was a rich business man from orange county. i was talking to her after i got home from school. she wasn't working. she had gone soft. looked week. she said her and taylor had gotten very close. they were in love. then taylor just disappeared. i said thats not right taylor is my friend. she said well she's my daughter. I was confused i thought she was my mom. i knew who taylors mom was. the woman in front of me (who looked like my mom) said well you've been replaced. I knew i wasn't wanted there. my mom turned into an unfamiliar aunt. i had to leave. there were security camera's. this place. almost like howle's moving castle was wedged between two office buildings. i was up on the ledge. like star wars. a city like spain or something. i was going to relax and explore but felt a twinge of ungratefulness. like i would be looking for something i couldn't find there. I saw the ocean it was a bay. enclosed by these razor sharp jaw shaped rocks. the water smashed through in pure white force. the people on the beach were getting pulled in. they were trying to help each other. i stood above not even considering helping. i don't know what i thought at that point.